I dont know how many of you are gonna even bother to read this, but I'm gonna explain my absence as of late.
The last couple months have been an experience for me to say the least. I think it started to go downhill from after my birthday in March. My luck seemed to have took the worst of turns. There was one bad event after another just pounding down on me and it really took a toll on my emotions. My motivation to do anything almost went to naught and i started to spiral back into depression that i had fought soo desperately to get out of for the past 2 years. I felt useless, helpless, like a waste of air. I contemplated many times the worst of the worst, and it was only because of my awesome friends' kind words and guidance, that i didn't resort to doing something drastic.School got boring and i felt unmotivated to do even the simplest of drawings. Home was stressing me out, school was stressing me out, my relationship also took a downward spiral and made me feel even worse than ever. I felt absolutely terrible. My end of term presentation wasn't even half of what i expected, cause of the sudden lack of interest had ruined my motivation, and I felt like i had robbed myself of a better final piece in the end.
Vacation started and instead of things getting better, they got worse. I already felt like shit cause of my presentation , so that lingered on my conscious for the first week and some. I didn't feel like doing anything, I didn't feel like talking to anyone. I became inactive here on DA and all my other personal blog sites as well. It was the most depressing art-block i had ever went through , i went into total withdrawal and all i could do was feel sorry for myself. Home and my relationship weren't helping at all, in fact they just made me feel shittier.
I lingered around in my room for days and days on end, just letting all my time and creativity waste away....I wanted to draw many things, but i was soo stressed out, i couldn't even force myself to try......... can any of you relate to that?
I always work on my mood. I can surprisingly work really well under pressure, but i cannot (for the life of me) do ANYTHING when I'm stressed out. Especially when I'm depressed. That's also the reason why I didn't really do any Christmas or New Year's celebration art.
As the weeks went by, my friends caught drift of my descending mood and took measures to cheer me up and as the weeks went by after that, I started to feel alot better. I went out alot more, hung out with them alot more. and despite my short-comings of the end of term, I learned to put that behind me and enjoy myself. And somehow I managed to cheer up abit.
Soo much so, that I started to feel motivated to draw again 
All i felt like doing was just drawing random characters.
All i felt like doing was just drawing random characters.And It was one day browsing around on DA that i discovered this person >> 
And i was soo inspired my their works that it lead me to create my own adoptable account > 
And since then, I've spent the last 3 months trying my luck in this new adopt world. And honestly , I must say that it really sparked my muse's dead fuse 
The new year is looking a little better now surprisingly. I'm working things out at home and my relationship and it feels like a huge weight has been lifted off my shoulders.
I apologise once again for my long absence. But when my feelings and mood drop, it's something i just cant control.
And I'm taking a break from this account for awhile also.I'll still finish outstanding commissions and I'll still answer questions or replies and stuff, but I'm feeling abit refreshed with my new account and I wanna stay there for a little while, if you guys dont mind 
Thank you all for the support these past years and I really enjoy being here. I hope some of you arent mad at my recent lack of activity and thanks to all those who read this 
Skin by SimplySilent
